I almost gave up in life. At the age of 27, I face different kinds of trials in life. Words of rejections and negativity are part of my day to day life. Financial hardships and breakthroughs are difficult to overcome. I was never contented in life no matter how hard I plan and work for it in order for me to fulfill happiness in life. I acted like a coward with no future ahead of me. When I face challenges my insecurities spurs up, I’m being controlled by my body telling me my weaknesses as a person. Life wasn’t fun at all because I was entirely lost even though people say that JESUS is the only way and it all boils down to HIM. I chose to live a life of defeat and mediocrity. I didn’t understand why I cannot have a life of peace and happiness.
It took years and years, cycle after cycle, up and downs, too finally realize one thing. HE LOVES ME SO MUCH and HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH AS WELL. It is so easy to say but It is so hard to grasp. I will tell you one more time! This is so hard to grasp. (READ PSALM 139 Contemporary English Version)
He hears us everyday. He sees everything that we do, He knows our heart desires whether good or bad. He never left me at all.
Thank you God after 28 years I finally realized it. Ngayon, in love na talaga ako sayo LORD.
Psalm 139 (The Lord is always near)
1You have looked deep into my heart, LORD, and you know all about me. 2You know when I am resting or when I am working, and from heaven you discover my thoughts. 3You notice everything I do and everywhere I go. 4Before I even speak a word, you know what I will say, 5and with your powerful arm you protect me from every side. 6I can’t understand all of this! Such wonderful knowledge is far above me.
Proverbs 5:21 Contemporary English Version (CEV)
21The LORD sees everything, and he watches us closely.