Age 10 – (Grade 4) I called a girl on the phone and I told God if she talks to me more than an hour. She will be my girlfriend.
Age 12 – (Grade 6) Lord! She is so pretty and intelligent. I really like her but i think she doesn’t like me.
Age 13- (1st year High School) Lord if she is the right girl for me! kung nakawhite sya na damit tomorrow then it is a sign! (she actually wears a white shirt). The next day, I started calling her on the phone almost every night
Age 15- (High School 3rd year) She looks like my favorite actress. So sexy and beautiful. I’m gonna ask her in prom and hopefully I will be able to dance with her.
Age 16- (4th year high school) I’m in love! This is not puppy love and I’m serious na! This is it! She is God sent!
Age 17- (1st year college) How come Lord busted Ako! Akala ko she is the one na! How come?!?!? I can’t take it anymore! Love hurts!
Age 18-21- (College life) Lord darating na lang yan and nahurt talaga ako. I don’t want to pursue.
Age 22- Still not pursuing ( confidence is down)
Age 25- (dating stage) Every moment! Ok she said yes to our date I think Lord eto na! eto na ang God’s best ko!!!!
Age 26- I had a chance to see my crush again after a long time, Lord sign ba ito? This is not a coincidence maybe you are telling me something. We went out again but nothing developed more than friendship.
Age 27- Met a girl! Love at first sight! Kaboom heart beats fast! without thinking.. heart decides to court immediately then wapak! end of story…heart cries but its ok!
Age 28- “Guard my heart and Follow God.” I’m still praying for my future spouse and I will respect every girl that I will meet. Never give up. But Lord I’m still hoping a for supermodel and Godly wife. (hehehe thats the spirit!)
As you can see, I haven’t found the perfect Girl of my dreams (no girlfriend since birth) and there would never be anyone that would perfectly match my standards that is why it is a dream but God has placed a desire in my heart. Love is a decision, I made several decisions in my life that helped me develop and mature as a man. Pursuing gave me a chance to develop patience and understanding. Loving one-sided developed my unselfish desires. I’m not a perfect man but I will not make myself remain a boy if I will not change and learn from life and follow God’s word.
This experiences that I learned can be capsulize in two verses and its found in Psalm 37:4 Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart and Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. This 2 verses always reminded me that it should be God first above all and then after He will reward our heart’s desires.